you cant stop SCREAMing

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2009-11-12T18:33:11Z

i really like to chill at east coast at night. (:

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2009-11-08T03:45:57Z

hahahas okay, you know whats a super lame thing about the previous post. i just looked at it and realised i forgot who it was about. HAHAHA!

anyways, thanks simon for coming down ystd. saved my life. (:

im going to start compiling and doing my schoolwork now. D: really needa buck up this sem. ):

isn't it weird how close friends turn into mere hi bye friends just like that. okay fine. it wasn't just like that. well what's done is done. so now i should stop corrupting my own mind. haha.

i needa stop ------------------------- too.

btw i <3 the tangs xmas deco. pretty ttm.

just a bit.

2009-11-06T01:42:06Z

imy.

sji

2009-11-01T18:54:07Z

hmm. the difference is so big. hmm hmm. why?

feels kinda :/

i should probably stop thinking about it cause the more i do, the more irritated i feel.
and the more irritated i feel, the more fake i will get. hah.

omg, seriously the more i think abt this the more i dont like them. lol.
jw, dont think so much.

jiawenn @ 2009-10-20T23:27:00

2009-10-20T15:45:25Z

im feeling really tired now. past week or so had been so hectic. even long naps can't seem to replenish my energy. i dread everything i do cause im just physically and mentally worn out. the thought of my depleting account makes me worry even more. especially when all the money goes into cabbing.

why does event pops up after events? its like never ending. seriously.

school just started. pressure will come in soon. go lectures, go tutorial, do project, listen in class, participate -_-. omg.

dreams is in 3 weeks. followed by the start of gems concert training. among that theres probably still normal hiphop and modern trainings. before all theses com-based still haven really really ended. i think i might just break down if all the cleans up and all are forgotten the next time i see them. or maybe i will just stare.

im soooo afraid i will have skin prob like my bro cause im too stress out. the rashes are already coming out. ): its in the blood you see.

i don't even want to start on my r/s probs. woah, the thought of them literally drain my blood. one like this one like that. one like that. another one like this. -_- omg, give me a break can.

you, want to talk to me just talk to me luh. so much for all your craps when you don't even contact me. stop acting like some hero in the back ground cause you're so not. and stop being so damn sore i really hate it. you, stop having your stupid mood swing. wth? talk to me coldly as and when you like. hello. friendships are at stake here, oh *roll eyes. you..i dont know what to say to you. you, you ought to know that i down right suck and should just stay away.

im sorry okay. im really sorry for all the shit i've done. so just keep the distance alright.

hah, here i am back to square one again.

and i hate my hair to the max. i hate the colour, the fringe right down to the length. i hate my peeling nose too. i hate being tan.

oh, thats it for now byes.

jiawenn @ 2009-10-13T16:40:00

2009-10-13T09:04:01Z

4 JUNE 09
met up w bestie at fareast. then headed to kovan area w ling (:

5 JUNE 09
Aloysius's bday! hahas! his worst bday ever in fact. hahas.

8-9 JUNE 09
mummy is biased. HAHAS i got to eat western while my bro got home-cooked food.

breakfast w amanda and ling then went to singapore national museum.
pics in fb. HAHAS

11-14 JUNE 09
IT fair! (: pics in fb.

13 JUNE 09
ko night semi-finals

20 JUNE 09
noodle hse

22 JUNE 09
dinc assignment w nat.

24-25 JUNE 09
can't remember what happened.HAHAHAS

26 JUNE 09
ko night finals

27 JUNE 09
daryl and co outing! (:

28 JUNE 09
THE BIG GROOVE'09

29 JUNE & 2 JULY 09
random school days pics. hahas

-_- im DAMN sian to upload anymore. hahas. seriously.

sem 2

2009-10-13T06:24:23Z

can't wait for school to start. -_- HAHAHAHAS okaokay i swear i will attempt to go for lecture for every subject at least twice okay.. then again key word here is attempt. HAHAHAS.

one good thing about a new term is that the attendance list will refresh! :D hAHAS awesome. i hope my gpa wont drop though. D: stress.

i have a damn good feeling im going to wear dance outfit very often this sem. hahahas. yup yup! then chilidish going to say i look like a fierce woman -_- HHAHAS. wth.

speaking of pictures. i really want to upload them. but somehow my photobucket is like full -_- and pictures are due FROM june -_- HAHHAS crazy right. anyway today is rest day. i am not going to step anywhr near bedok and tampinese if possible. :D sorry bestie!

BYES! *waves.

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2009-10-10T17:37:31Z

hahas, im such a bitch.
imy. but youre not going to know. (:

damn i feel like shit.

hungry

2009-10-08T18:32:09Z

(: audition was fun today.

i will upload pictures soon. -_- soon. hahas.

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2009-10-02T19:13:19Z

hi hi im back!
to my screwed up life. (:

heartbreak

2009-09-23T23:52:23Z

one of those moments when heart wrenching songs play in the background and memories come crashing on me as i stared at the other side of the bed where you used to sleep.

the rest, words can't explain.

</3

2009-09-16T14:45:43Z

don't think. dont think. dont care. dont care. don't comment. don't waiver. don't think. don't think. don't give a damn. don't cry.
its okay what they think. its okay what they say. everything is okay as long as you know the truth yourself. everything is for the best.
you will be just fine alone.

from ley's blog

2009-09-14T18:56:20Z

http://www.switchtosuccess.co.uk/Happiness.html

Surroundings: 20 - You seem to be pretty happy
Behaviours: 21 - You seem to be pretty happy
Capabilities and Skills: 17 - You seem to be neither happy nor unhappy
Values and Beliefs: 21 - You seem to be pretty happy
Identity:23 - You seem to be pretty happy
Purpose:18 - You seem to be neither happy nor unhappy

1. Surroundings:
It seems that while you are already very content with your day to day physical surroundings overall. These may include: the places you frequent, the people you engage with regularly and the personal relationships you have ?or don抰 have. You are one of those fortunate people who look at what抯 happening in their day-to day lives and feel good about what they see hear and feel. As you think about a typical day, week or month in your life and mentally go through it, consider if there are any small changes you could make now that would increase your current level of happiness even more. Remember to keep focussing on the plus points in this area as they will reinforce your positive and that may help you in other areas of your life where things may not be quite so rosy

2. Behaviours:
Your responses suggest that you have a great feeling of optimism about life, generally expecting things to go well and ensuring that you do the kind of things today that make you happy. You seem to have recognised that happiness is often gained from finding time for things you enjoy doing rather than putting things off until tomorrow. You might want to take time to consider if there are areas of your life that detract from your happiness. Do you find yourself doing things you don抰 enjoy? Be sure to maintain a healthy balance in tending towards optimism while checking out your hopes against reality.

3. Capabilities and Skills:
Your responses suggest that you feel reasonably satisfied with your talents and your personal development to date. Much happiness comes from growing and developing as a person. You are likely to be aware of the skills and gifts that you have ?and to have used at least some of them well. When you consider your range of capabilities, it might be useful for you to think through where you have not yet developed yourself to your full potential. It may be that there are still some things that you have always wanted to learn or to achieve, but somehow other things have got in the way. These are likely to be a source of frustration for you and will therefore take away from your happiness. So why not decide which one aspect of yourself you would like most to develop further and stretch yourself beyond your comfort level. Make sure that it is also something where you have a good chance of success, so that you will feel even better about yourself

4. Values and Beliefs:
In general you have a well developed sense of what is important to you personally. You know that you are important and you pay attention to what you value and believe in. Happiness comes from being true to yourself and knowing what matters to you. You are unlikely to allow other people抯 agendas to over rule your own and you know how to stay focussed on your personal goals. You are likely to feel a strong sense of motivation as you know what you want. While this is a vital part of personal happiness, check that you have not disregarded the needs of others. A delicate balance needs to be maintained in relationships to ensure that your happiness is not paid for by others.

5. Identity:
You seem to know exactly who you are, accepting and valuing yourself so that you can realise your true potential. This certainty about who you are will allow you to pursue what really matters to you. You are likely to be able to identify and remove obstacles from your path, sticking true to what really matters to you. Your score reflects your knowledge of who you are choosing to be at this time. Happiness springs from self knowledge, accepting yourself for who you with all of your gifts as well as your imperfections.

6. Purpose:
In the main, you seem to know where you are going and why you are doing it. You have a sense of purpose and although you may occasionally stray from the path, in general you know where you can make a difference and you are happy to know that life has meaning and is worthwhile. Be careful not to get distracted by events or actions that leave you feeling that your contribution is not valued or that your voice is not being heard. You may now and again have a feeling of dissatisfaction but in general you know what your life is about.

i know i am cruel.

2009-09-13T15:40:13Z

enough words had been said. if you really just want to ignore me, i will respect your decision and not contact you.

): damn im feeling damn terrible. sorry i have to be the bad guy. i just can't go on anymore. and i wont try to explain myself anymore either.
never once had you understood me..): why? if you had had been able to do that, none of this will be happening now.
then again, who am i to push the blame to you. lols.

i guess its just fate.
</3 i swear i will miss you.

HIPHOP

2009-08-31T16:06:15Z

HEYS anyone interested in learning Hip Hop, do contact
Andee @ andycys1990@hotmail.com okay! (:
8weeks course. starting this Sunday 12-1pm. 100$ for students.

Yea, it's time to stop contemplating if you should learn and just go and learn it.

coral is my fav. colour

2009-08-27T16:33:56Z

im feeling damn awesome now.
jiayou my dear voniques! :D

with km and ter turning more and more feminine and loving towards each other, suria and her 'smack you arhhh' HAHAHAH, estee w her 'dont help you' when her actions contradicts and the always bimbotic messy hair and stuff toy. i really enjoy all the trainings. :D
love you guys to bits. <3

haha, thats the bright side. now comes the dark side.

i don't know what to say. i dont know how i should react. i cannot read minds.
what are their intentions? what are they trying to do? is there some hidden motives or just pure kindess?
sorry, i don't believe in pure kindness. im feeling damn skeptical.
shall wait and see. life sucks huh. tsk.

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2009-08-15T19:28:54Z

no, my heart can't soften this time. cause the longer things drag, the more hurt would be inflicted. the vicious cycle has to stop.i won't listen to emo songs.i won't let that sadness i am feeling now overwhelm me, i will force back tears too.i will lie to myself that everything is still fine and well till i'm used to this.
i <3 you boy. but this is for our own good. you will understand when you finally find the right girl for you ):

Super Overdue 1 !!

2009-08-15T17:02:15Z

MAY 18
another interesting apel class regarding BGR. HAHAHAHAHa.
We derived that guys want their girlfriends to be horny but not flirty. HAHAHA. SHEESH

after school met up w the peeps you see below for dinner then headed to town to meet the others.

MAY 19
met up w my proj mates to conduct survey at queensway. then went back school for dance at night.

MAY 20
faom proj meeting followed by faom class
hahaha bryan mini chick eraser damn cute right. HAHAHA

MAY 22
i proposed HAHAHAHA.

MAY 23
KO night heats

MAY 25
HAHAHA cant remember what happened.

MAY 26
i went for some lecture. HAHAHA fell aslp and woke up w drawings on my back. HAHAHA
stupid yuhan! CHILDISH!

MAY 27
cant remember what happened. HAHAHA

MAY 28
mug w bryan after school i think

MAY 30
KO night heats 2 i think. HAHA

THATS ALL FOR MAY! HAHAHAHA next june! :D

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2009-08-15T14:15:28Z

WEEEEE! okay. thought its like hols alr now (unofficial one. theres still 1 paper left 40% D:), I STILL DONT HAVE TIME.

hahaha, sheesh. so theres recital audi next week(?) then needa prac for suntec heats that will be held 2 weeks later. then need to start cheoro for ghetto for comm-based. -_- WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE hols is gone like THAT.

hahaha, why am i still so shocked? it has been like this since i join dance. woo! <3 tpde.

OKAY. AT LEAST i have the time to upload photos now! HAHAHAHA! arent you excited? :D
shall post today's pic in fb first then start all the way from june's photo. (:

bet you wont believe anyway.

2009-08-14T01:50:52Z

ilu you know? even now. even after all the shit.

but i cant go on anymore.
sorry.

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2009-08-13T00:47:26Z

hahaha i haven sleep. WOOOOOO. im so going to die later.

after mbs i will be studying for ccp paper tml (which i dont even have the notes yet -_-)
then i have prac for suntec D:

then i will come home damn tired and still needa ton and pia my ccp. HAHAHAHA

wooo, im wearing 2 different rose earring now -_- not that i want to but i really wanna wear rose studs. but both only left one side each. LOL.

hahaha! i can't believe i spend more than an hour running ard hse looking for clothes and putting make up. HAHAHAh. by right im suppose to just wear dance wear to school but. OMG I HAVE BEEN BAGGY EVERYDAY! need a break even for a while.

anway the stupid kiwi is stuck in my braces. SHEESH.
and waluxzxzx i cant find that dress i bought and haven wore. :@

HAHAHAHA

2009-08-12T21:19:54Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h47fNaOb-JU&feature=fvst

HAHAH i sure this made my day.

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2009-08-12T20:40:55Z

OMG, im like super tired now.

I had been serving net, blogs hopping, facebook-ing, msn-ing, downloading songs (D:) and watching youtube for the past like 5.5hours straight. HAHAHA!

Kinda don't dare to sleep as now i don't have an alarm to wake me (phone stolen).

Haha, anyway. I have the sudden urge to post photos but NAH, i should really sleep. LOL! I think i will do it next week.

And to the person who hacked pea's blog, as what I had told pea, you are probably some bored and retarded person who have no bright future ahead thus doing such lame stuffs. Otherwise, you are just plain shallow. Zomg, losers.

Yea, no one like losers. (fyi: losers here do not refer to those poor souls who lost some competition or whatever)

oh, and to whoever who ever had or still having the idea (which had probably came from outer space) that I am all sugar, spice and everthing nice,
LOL pls wake up.

DDDDDDDDD:

2009-08-04T15:38:27Z

DIE LUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
tml got mr paper. till now i only did 1 chapter -_- HAHAHA.
totally not in exam mode at all. D:

ANDDDDDDDD

tml modern test. AHAHAHAH die alr.
my turns are damn jialat and i nv learn kicks -_-

AHHHHHHAHAHA. i need a pat on my shoulders.

somebody call 911

2009-08-03T10:59:09Z

amanda got me addicted to this song. hahah (: I thought the mtv was really cool.
especially when the dancers starts to enter the club. :D

Suntec Suntec! WOOOO
Vonique <3